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Post by ironfeather on Jan 29, 2006 15:26:44 GMT
the star wars convo, and my talk with friend last night got me thinking again about right vision, right intention, the whole shebang... i have strayed a bit, compelled by a PTSD complex that i have only recently realized i did indeed have symptoms of. [dissociation, relationship problems, and more]. Just saying my emotions are messed up. My DOC [drugs of choice] to deal with the pain have been video games and the other i am not posting in public. just setting that straight. I have been gone for two weeks in cyberspace... and it's hard to get back into practice. just not wanting it enough to really apply myself. [and is always harder in winter... i just curl up and hibernate] the Seasonal Affective Disorder thing. as a trauma survivor, i am averse to risk taking. this explains a lot.
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Post by JCL on Jan 29, 2006 19:11:18 GMT
hmm, i aint really got time 2 write a proper reply rite now, but just 2 say... nice 2 have u back
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Post by ironfeather on Jan 30, 2006 20:23:24 GMT
thanks.
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Post by alexandra on Jan 31, 2006 14:48:27 GMT
I will tell you how it is with me....
The whole point of studying these teachings is not only to understand them and to agree with them, it is to use them to transform your life from one lived under illusion and attachment... This is why the Buddha encouraged those who wished to follow his path, to examine things exhaustively. You can't search for, find and accept a truth half-heartedly. (You either ''Can' or you 'Can't'. there is no 'Try'.) But by so doing, then you learn the Truth of what suffering and attachment are... and even though you might be beset with problems, and understand that you are inexorably caught in a life of samsara, even though your moods and emotions would fluctuate, your central essence, and state of being would be one of Joy and Serenity. In my experience, without going into detail, I have known some extremely desperate and distressing times. I have encountered the shadow of despair and hit depths of fear and dread, such as I would not wish to describe. But my sincere and continued practise finds me in a state of internal Joyousness. Through Buddhism, The Four Noble Truths and the Eightfold Path, I am able to sincerely rise above 'what ails me.' And my joyous Refuge in the Buddha, Dharma and Sangha have proven time and time again, to be a constant source of comfort and solace for me.
Remember that the monk who was subjected to 14 years of constant terrible torture while incarcerated in Tibet, said that his greatest fear was to lose his Compassion for the Chinese. An extraordinary example of how following the Buddha can render you free even in the most depressing situations..... I care not what my past karma brought me to, or has laid before me as my 'just desserts'... I care intently for today, and the one step at a time I know I am able to take, by doing what I do.
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Post by JCL on Feb 1, 2006 12:03:25 GMT
i think the term 'right' as in right view, speech etc is a relative term, and the 8fold path should be seen only as a guide and a reference. what is far more important is how it is implemented in real life.
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Post by ironfeather on Feb 1, 2006 12:07:09 GMT
didn't we have a conversation about listeniing a long time ago in a galaxy far far away?
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Post by alexandra on Feb 1, 2006 13:23:41 GMT
i think the term 'right' as in right view, speech etc is a relative term, and the 8fold path should be seen only as a guide and a reference. what is far more important is how it is implemented in real life. That would be the Point I was making, yes..... You talkin'' to me Ironfeather....? I think that would be a "surely did!!"
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Post by JCL on Feb 3, 2006 11:53:37 GMT
didn't we have a conversation about listeniing a long time ago in a galaxy far far away? lol, i hope that wasn't directed at me, cos i have no idea what ur talkin about!
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Post by ironfeather on Feb 4, 2006 13:06:00 GMT
was to alter ego of someone who was in very small talking stick circle, so, not u JCL. [clue was the 8fold path acronym]
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Post by alexandra on Feb 4, 2006 13:25:29 GMT
Stick pass to left? It is me, but not me here, but elsewhere, but not important. Not there, Here! How are you my friend? Don't worry, JCL... we go back a short to medium-long way....
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Post by ironfeather on Feb 7, 2006 12:27:36 GMT
still alive, obviously.
my aversion to risk-taking [perfect sense for PTSD] has allowed insurance to lapse on my therapy in IPRT, and i was really enjoying the watercolor class. Insurance requires a therapist with specific credentials to periodically approve my stay in the IPRT program, and many of you know I was unhappy with Wanda pushing the pills and not listening like she is paid to do. I wanted holistic angle, and she is very uninformed in that regard. There was some confusion in the transition to a new therapist, and I got discouraged by it. IPRT is basically a skills-oriented psych rehab. Bear snarled in red tape again.
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Post by ironfeather on Feb 7, 2006 12:29:37 GMT
Post script:
have first appointment with Ann on 14th. But today is still last day of IPRT.
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Post by alexandra on Feb 7, 2006 12:38:33 GMT
Apologies...help a dense one, please... What exactly is IPRT? I'm trying to guess, and it's proving silly, other than 'Therapy' as the last word....
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Post by ironfeather on Feb 9, 2006 9:37:50 GMT
IPRT = Intensive Psychiatric Rehabilitation treatment [program]
which aims for building skills in any or all of four to five goal environments, [living-home, social, vocational, school, recovery]
each IPRT is a little different obviously. The core of the one i went to is a cognitive therapy model originated by Dr. Abraham Low in the 1930s and made accessible to wider audience through the work of Joan Nobiling and Rose Van Sickle. I have been pushing for more inclusion of "Emotional Genius" by Karla McLaren, and it has been led as book discussion group only once, facilitated by me.
I can add details as we go.
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Post by prady on Feb 9, 2006 10:18:58 GMT
i have been told cognitive therapy is very much like the way buddha approached enlightenment. i have heard good things about it!
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